My NDE Experience
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What I will share about my near death experience (NDE) is that it was an answer to my prayers. Yep, I prayed all the way to work that morning, asking for something more. I was raised Catholic, but by then I had moved beyond that tradition. I told God, or the Divine Supreme Source of all that is, that I was done with the struggle and the heartache in my life, that I felt complete in what I'd already experienced, and that I either wanted to die and go home, or be shown what was next for me to do here.
I also prayed that if there was something more for me to do, to show me clearly because I didn't want to keep doing what I was doing. It was too stressful and I was terribly unhappy, even though I'd done everything society said would lead me to happiness—gone to University and graduate school, entered a professional career, bought a house, and was in a longterm relationship.
My body was tired, my spirit was drained...I worked from 7:30 a.m. to 10:30 p.m. daily just to keep up with the demands of my job, which left no space or energy for anyone or anything else. It's no wonder that my relationship and mood suffered. Despite what I'd accomplished, I was burnt out, unhappy, and exhausted. I was also disillusioned, disappointed, and felt cheated in life.
I had a 30 minute commute to work on the back roads of the Texas hill country. It was beautiful land, and every morning I used the time to prepare myself for what I knew would be a stressful day. This particular day I would check in at the central office of the school district I worked for as a School Psychologist in town, and then head out to a couple of campuses on the western edge of the district some 40 miles away. At the end of the day, I had to return to the central office by 4:30 p.m. to pick up some forms from parents that I needed to complete reports at home later that night.
On my commute back to the central office that afternoon, I was involved in a car accident. It was designated a "high-impact, head-on collision." The speeding teen driver who veered into my lane was in an old Ford F-150 pickup and I was in a small Toyota Corolla pre-airbag days, so my car crushed in quite dramatically on impact. Had I not been wearing a seatbelt, I would have been splattered on the windshield of that truck, dead. I believe that it is literally by the Grace of God that I survived the accident.
During the hour it took for the ambulance to reach us, I was unconscious and had a profound out-of-body experience, plus a powerful "conversation" with what I now believe to be a guardian or angelic being. I experienced a deep internal and personal shift as a result, but never spoke of it to anyone. Within a year I left my job, and not long after, began intensive study and practice of more ancient, nature- and energy-based healing traditions like shamanism and kundalini yoga. I also began to nurture certain gifts that I had ignored in my adult life—my intuition, psychic capacities, connection to nature and the unseen realms, and writing.
Today I view this NDE as a blessing, a catalyst in the trajectory of my life that put me on a powerful path of healing for myself and others. My years of formal training and practice in psychology, therapy, counseling, educational psychology, and coaching, coupled with the applied learning of ancient healing wisdom from various traditions studied beyond University, is a powerful combination in my Healing Support Sessions and coaching with women that gets results. I see that radical transformation is accessible to anyone who wants it. All we have to do is be willing to go for it and to seek the guidance that feels right for us to do so.